domingo, 27 de novembro de 2016

What are you on ?

How does it feel like ?
How does it taste like ?
Been there, done that
Good luck putting up
with that pile of crap
All talk no action
Everybody's waiting
for your reaction
Give them what they want
give the crowd all the filth all the dirt
I can smell blood in the air,
someone will end up hurt
Don't talk down I'm up here
What pisses you off the most
is that I'm still sincere
And that's why they fear me dear
People only speak the truth
once the end is near

What keeps you going ?
What are you on ?
You're just a courpse, since
your soul is gone
The dark is already here, so
I'll wait for the dawn
Water bills, TV. bills, gas bills,
electricity  too
And they turn to you
saying that this is all you'll have
'till you die
Well tough luck 'cause I'm not ready
to kiss my dreams goodbye
So go ahead and cry
Once it all crumbles down
But at least I still gave it a try
You do not control destiny
and you are not the boss of me
You are just blinded 'cause you
refuse to see
The incredible person that you
can actually be
As long as those stars still shine
fighting will be a right of mine
As long as the earth spins, and
the sun is up there in the sky
I'll be damned, but I'll try
I'm already that high
I already feel like I can fly
Call it a fantasy, call it a lie
Come on don't be shy
Say I'll never make it,
that I'll never get far
Reopen that nasty scar
Once more here we are
Drag me down like you
always do
Thing is, we're talking about
me not you
I'll get off my ass and do
something for a change
You keep dreaming at a close
Let's do this, let's make it
Here's your shot, take it


quinta-feira, 24 de novembro de 2016

Rotten dreams

What exactly will
be my resolution ?
Is there a fuckin'
solution ?
For all this shit,
five years of this,
I'm dead meat
All of it in a row
Come on not again,
hell no
I think I'm gonna
go home now
and stay there
I don't feel safe with
myself and that's not fair
Take my advise,
don't follow my example
I'm the ruined sample
Don't know what I'm talking about
Can't figure myself out

Are you mad ?
I'm sad ...
Sometimes I miss what
I never had
I desperately
 need to pee
Hi, it's me ...
Again yes
A pain in your ass
An incredible mess
True friend nevertheless
I'm so high
for tonight I would settle
by staring at the sky
But even the stars lie
They're not even there
And I don't really care

I've got to wake up early
tomorrow and clean my room
it looks like a bomb went off,
that's pretty much it, Boom ...
I'm losing it
bit by bit
I plan to build it up
brick by brick
I spent time in bed with the enemy
I'm becoming the villain,
which suits me
Ohhh you took too much,
what a hell of an experience
Living on the edge of this rush
life is provided with a small deviance
I feel that I'm walking straight,
but what if I'm not
Insecurities, that's all I've got
I'm allowing my dreams to rot
That's so silly, specially after
how much I've fought
Well I'm gonna give it another go
'Cause hell, we never know ...



segunda-feira, 21 de novembro de 2016


DOC do you think I'm evil by what I'm thinking ?
Well that depends child, but tell me and keep blinking 
So the voices go like I hate you all and you should die ...
Oh dear but that's not true, I know that's a lie 
Well yes, I love my momma and baby brother
and grandpa and grandmother
But the rest of the world is such a bother
Can't figure you out, I just want to get away
You're sucking my bliss, I'm not going to be okay
anytime soon,
yes and I'll be back, although nowadays I'm so
much better on the moon
My own private wonderland
It's not burying the head in the sand
Your world is just too much for me to understand
I've been writing for years, can't feel my hand
Battling with the conscience, dissecting an old mistake
Trying to prevent a future heartbreak
But once you think you got it, it's already too late
I don't know, is it karma? Is it fate ?
Or am I just live bait ?
Ohhh you felt this shit ? Was it an earthquake ?
No, I'm willing to bet that this was it, tough break
Another hero revealed as a fake
There are a lot of those running around here
Yeah You've met a few haven't you dear ?
Hummm can you feel it ? Bursting through each vein
Revenge is dying to come out , and it has your name
You are King of no Reign
But I got to control this, tame this inside
After all this was just a joke, wasn't it Clyde ?
And you feel like clawing the skin out of your body
'Cause it itches and hurts just remembering this story

We will never move mountains, we won't move shit
'Cause you're not willing to help, not even a little bit
This frustrated joy ride got me sick
What if it all ended now, what then ?
You better face it, aren't you a man ?
it's the collision route, too much damage to continue
Too many lies to keep believing it was ever true
I fell right there, face on the ground
"Freak show" they scream from all around
They laugh of the girl who for a second dared to believe
That the happily ever after wasn't impossible to achieve
Now head down, watch her leave
Hope's gone when it comes to a heart affair
You better stop it, that is taking you nowhere
If you never itch bellow the surface you'll never see
What all this fun and games made of me
A monster, look closely ...



sábado, 19 de novembro de 2016

The whole story

Do you want to know
the whole story?
It's not about heroes,
nor glory
I'm not the villain, nor
the victim here
There are no more tears
left to cry dear
I like to think of myself
as a bystander
Which is better than what you are,
little pretender

They are not bad people,
only human
masters of ilusion, deception
that's why there was no connection
Them and their masks
Who are you?
Them and their secrets
What are you gonna do?
Them and those dirty lies
We do hate it
But it's time for some more

It's the sickness of the mind
You know what they say
No man get's left behind
it's obvious, you're gonna end up
hurting yourself
Love, your man is looking at me funny
You better put your boy on a leash honey
You're not dead, you're just numb
You're not bad, just dumb
Feel my heartbeat like a drum
Come, come
come at me
We are done, I broke free
Tell your homie
To calm down
This is not your circus clown
What up thug ?
I'll squash you like a bug
Now go ahead and eat shit
all alone
You're on your own !

It's about time we dust
off this mike
hang on, don't worry
this time we'll get it right !


sexta-feira, 18 de novembro de 2016

The hunting season is open : killed a couple of love birds today

You do pretend
about all that you trully intend,
it doesn't matter ,
you're still weak
Good luck with whatever
that is you seek
Me? I actually quit
it's all so dark, so selfish, makes me go numb
Love, I'm actually not that dumb
I do not enjoy the pain,
nor savor each fear
I do not take pleasure in being constantly
surrounded by fear
That's not a reflexion in the mirror
it's a smear
Kept on catchin' up with that walk of shame
With no one but myself to blame
Usually I'm already here
and don't even remember why I came
That ivory tower won't stand there forever
So let's be smart, let's be clever
it's pretty much now or never ...

You always go with the flow
you never actually planned a me and a you
Well fuck you too
You're so full of bullshit
easy to see through
I'm as real as it gets, and
that scares the shit out of you

Karma never fails,
and when it comes to you
it has some catchin' up to do
Selfishness is a dreadful sin
You're not evil, just mean
The type that would steal
candy from a baby
Just 'cause he's happier than you
Oh you are simply a frustrated little lady
Greedy, so fake than not even China would
claim your ass
Dear this shit you are in is your
own damn mess
you give only to take
you built only to break
you may actually be sorry,
but it might be too late

That's twice already,
walking all over me
But see
I'm just waiting deary
now this is how it's gonna be
My rules, did you hear me silly ?
Money changes, power corrupts isn't that right ?
Tell me, can you still sleep through the whole night ?
I just hope you know
how far I'm willing to go
to kill your little show

The voices are my best friends
And I do know they're
gonna be here 'till the end ...


Blue dreams

quinta-feira, 17 de novembro de 2016

Poking Zombies

Ladies and gentlemen
here we are once more
another year, you must be ready for !
He says that this is special
I don't think so
He says he will stay no matter what
But now he needs to go
Yes I know ...
You've got to leave it all behind
I do hope that you can find
all that you wished for and some
peace of mind ...
You forgot
I did not ...
It's all here
and it's no good
You say you're trying
I wish you would ...
New shot, same gun
I guess you're stuck with those memories
yes we did have fun ...

Dear diary, I see dead people
I'm done
Yes I quit on all of this,
yup I'm the one !

Does this happen to you too?
Wanting to do so much
but there's only as  much as
you can do
I'm on a mission
I'm on a rampage
get the fuck out of my face !
Stop the press ! I'm back for good
the wolf got too fat
couldn't chase red ridding hood !
I'm the light to your darkness
as I'm a bit dark myself
Maybe we should just leave this unfinished
chapter on the shelf
Poking zombies
the brain dead
you heard me
that's exactly what I said
you all made your bed !
You blink your eyes
'cause you're seeing the light
Blood rushing loudly to your veins
hammering the back of your skull
this life is most certainly not dull
We do live it in full
Man I'm too high
Get me some sugar ! Ah ah ah
I know, it's a hard task
that of letting go of the mask
but you better do it, and fast
'cause time is known for not being
able to last
You'll be out of here soon enough
while you're at it, fight,
I know you, you can take it rough !


quarta-feira, 16 de novembro de 2016

Despicable me

Worst than a poisoned apple
far more dangerous than the
Evil Queen
Villainous love, not just mean
Despicable me
You already took advantage
of my generosity
That's the problem with all of you
You confuse my kindness with
So here's what I'll do
I'll teach you a lesson or two
Sticks and stones
Can't do me no harm
I'm bad to the bones
Sound the alarm
Black widow baby
hanging from the web
I scare the shit out of the
monster under your bed

The nice girl is gone
and she's not planning on
coming back
Unlike you, honesty is something
that I don't lack
I do have what it takes
to be put on the map
Between my intelligence
and yours, there's an enormous gap
What I once loved, makes me sick today
You're not able to stand against me,
so get the hell out of my way
Beg on your knees, fake preachers
are the ones who pray
I crave for closure, for an end game
Don't worry, I know I'm the one
to blame
Your arms stretched out deluded me
Expectations are the worst
and we enjoyed the most
The mighties rise and fall
But a true Queen will never crawl
Assassin, out for blood
My name up in those lights
yours in the mud
I intend to kill,
it's called free will
To murder that notion that the world
has of you
You'll watch it go down
'cause there's nothing you can do
If you strike a deal with the Devil
you are as guilty as he is
Nothing more than a mere tease
I aint showing no love to those bitches
Thanks to you I got to know the pain
of these stitches
Stabbing the smoke, Oh I'm this party's hostess
Oh gee what a nonsense
Bow down to your highness
for the truthful ruler has arrived at last
I advise you to get out of my sight
and make it fast
I'm out drinking this ghost
Yes enjoying the most
of this shit
Down to the last sip
Yeah I'm tasting it
bit by bit ...


terça-feira, 15 de novembro de 2016

Head over hills

Okay so this might come as a shock to you
but I also have a sweet side
and when it comes to loving
it's like a roller coaster ride
I sign as Lil' Missy when it comes
to falling on my face
I force those boys to
pick up the pace
I'm demanding when it comes
to that fairytale
because when things get serious
the princes tend to fail
So we had to take drastic measures
so that you wouldn't lose your heart
She seems tough but she's
broken apart
She wears that same heart on her sleeve,
an emotions slave
So we tried to get her to her senses,
but she wouldn't come down
Head over hills while you should fixate
your feet on the ground
She's already too used to that horrible
heartbreaking sound
Girl you are all by yourself
take a good look around
They don't care if you're hurt
or bleeding your way out
You can keep screaming,
you can even shout
They are never coming back
that is a wound for you to heal
and now you are thinking that
the shining knight is actually not a big deal
Lover girl got herself locked in
the dungeons and we threw away the key
You brought this on yourself,
you know that, right honey ?
Make believe is not the right adress
for you to be living in
there are no heroes in this land anymore,
where the hell have you been ?
Lil' Missy has to kick those fantasies away
or it's a sure thing that you won't make it
through another day
We will let you out as soon as you get better
We do worry and care about you
therefore we are writing this letter
Swear that you will start using your brain
Promise that you'll turn into life lessons
all that previous pain
Oh this girl will drive all of us insane
and she deserved better, what a shame
Are you really going to wait around
for some Prince's last name ?
Then you'll rot in that prison of
fading dreams that you have built
Consumed by those unperformed fantasies
and postponed happily ever after
You are only fooling yourself, that way
you will never get over this dark chapter


quinta-feira, 10 de novembro de 2016

Act II

Brick by brick we are tearing this shit down
Save your asses and bring the crown
Take the dust out and let's make some noise
Come on everybody let me hear you raise your voice
It's dark, Oh so dark in here
Mirrored my fear
Look at you, nothing more than a smear
You ought to get your ass up dear
Nah nah you're in denial that can't be
Eyes wide open and still you couldn't see
How could that even be a possibility
Bury that hope, better leave it in the past
Get the hell out of here and do it fast
You're a big girl and those do not get to cry
You're more than ready to kiss those fantasies goodbye
The monsters under your bed are too big to hide
The skeletons are out of the closet, along with your broken pride
Where's your smile, love? Is it gone ?
Can you feel your legs ? Can you move on ?
Nahhh I'm too stoned to try that
But I can try to take a bunny out of my hat
That's always a crowd pleaser, let's risk
Ohhh it's fucking foggy in here, a mist
I'm falling into the nothing, the nowhere
I'm tired of pretending, acting like I don't care ...
Well don't worry, I'm getting there
Fuck the world, and fuck what they think
This is a boat already doomed to sink
Looking like a zombie again, come on blink
Can't hear shit of what they are saying
Can't figure out what the hell they are playing
Messing around with others feelings, a prank
The mind crashes, it draws blank
Lost your way during this fucked up stunt
Let's blow the candle, let's extinguish the flame
I'll walk away, the walk of shame
Well it happens sometimes, to the best of us
I'm not being dramatic, nor trying to start a fuss
And get them the prize, they were right
I was fooled again, I just can't win this fight ...
Okay world I got it, Now what do I have to do ?
To be less than what I am and be more like you
We keep on faking, kept in an uptight rerun
We destroyed it, what have we done ?
Have you won ?
'Cause I don't know what to feel ...
And the wound, will it heal ?
The devil smiled and I took the deal
It's too late to go back now
Even if I knew how
Which I don't, Oh I'm lost
Would you spare me this one, I payed a high cost
I risked the last shred that was mine to keep
Mistaken, apparently it was yours to rip
And on this puppet show I'm supposed to act nice
Once again I claim that it's a high price
You are wasting each shot
Wake up you are in shock
It's not slowing down, this damn clock
Wrong story, wrong plot
Better get on track
Bring that old soldier back ...


Green Velvet & lace

quarta-feira, 9 de novembro de 2016

Act I

Hey it's me, new material on the line
Ohhh I'm hanging on just fine ...
You schhhhh ! I can't hear myself thinking
Oh I look dead, better start blinking
Aww shit this aint happening, this ought to be a joke
Nurse come quick, I'm about to have a stroke
Great shit, quality speech
I need to sew this again, stitch by stitch
Oh I hate humans, dreadful kind
Can't wrap my mind
about what y'all want, do you even feel ?
Oh dear ... God is no longer on the wheel
He gave up on you and all your choices
Ohh my head and those weird noises ...
Quiet down, stand back
Is that all you've got life ? You're wack !
Bring it on bitch, I aint done yet
I can take much more, do you want to bet ?
Welcome to the dark deep realm, a curse
Round 2, I'm still standing, I've taken worse
Rubbish, garbage, that's all they say
I wave and smile back, like fuck you and have a nice day
I've written loads of shit but nothing like that
I mean ... talking about a stab in the back
Ohhh the fairytale dear, that shit aint your style
Now pose for the picture and just smile
Fragile masks fall one by one
A round of applause, we had a lot of fun
Ohhh come on, just load the gun
End this shit, blow this joint
We've got to this point
Let's go for the truth
Let's rip it from the root
Blow it up, up in smoke, up in smoke
So much poison, stuck in your troat
But you can hold it in, no revenge this time
A premiere follows, we'll let it slide, the dirty crime
Burn each bridge, burn each door
Never shall we return to what we were before
We're shutting it down
End this circus, kill each clown
I hate charades, and false portraits, I simply do
I dread every single heartbeat that proves you aint true
What a sad world, color it blue
All this drama, nothing new
Why would I ever help you ?
This solitude is smothering me
It was taken for a while, all that I could be
But I'm back, do not fear
And nothing will take me away from here
I was out of focus, got out of line
Man I would blow this joint up, it's a right of mine
Set the rain on fire, let the sin be washed away
Oh I'm great can't you tell ? Surviving to another day
Oh but let's be friends
Maybe hold hands
Never a dream felt this good
Cinderella is on a mood
I'll call truces fate
Let's not deviate
We're off the course
There's no knight, no horse
We're walking barely hanging
But come on you'll be the last one standing
Are we clear ? Are we understanding ?
Empty reflexions, no clean sight
A damn mess, a bloody fight
But it's fine I'm alright ...
I'm backing away from the light
Vain portraits, advertisements of who they wish to be
While I got to be fine with the real me
Blank sheet and all you can write
Welcome to the fright night
Innocent little lambs sliding down to the slaughterhouse
Ohhh the cat fooled you well, you thought you stood a chance little mouse ...


segunda-feira, 7 de novembro de 2016

The life of a (now angry) stoner

I keep changing and
rearranging this world of mine
I figured that since I've got the time
I do not want to stop creating, never
I want this to live forever
I desire to become immortal
It was a pleasure being high
next to all of you
I always tried my best,
that was all I could do
Flat line once they got away
Never deserved the chance
to ask you to stay
Well go on now, thank you
for this unpleasant walk of shame
it will certainly make me
raise my game

Why are you following trends,
is that the best you can be ?
Copying every shit that you see
How can you know better about
what's like to be me ?
Yes try it, seriously
Punch on your face
Come on friend
enlight me all about your new trend
They are taking their clothes off
putting on a hell of a show
Yes their boobs grow
but apparently the brain doesn't though
They talk trash about each other
watching each others burn
Love whatever you're going through
it's not the whole world's concern
She raised hell,
people love to kiss and tell
Spitting out your secrets along
with their guts
It's not okay to be different
but they're completly nuts
Stick your labels up where the
sun doesn't shine
Man you risked it, you crossed
a very thin line
I have DOC's orders to follow
you are a hazard to me since you
got so hollow
so vain, so damn shallow
So as long as I'm here
you'll drain me dear
it's best for you to disappear
I haven't seen shit, heard shit
So I can't say shit anyway
Go on then, fuck off, and
have a nice day ...



sexta-feira, 4 de novembro de 2016

Going, and gone ...

I'm waving darling,
I'm going
Love, I'm gone
let's back off, let's retreat
I need some room,
let me breathe
I don't know what I want, let along
what I need
Dear, let's just leave ...
We were shaking, but we got to be free
Blinded by what was missing
we couldn't see
That I had you and you had me ...

The ghosts are back,
we hid for too long
Got torn apart,
we played it wrong
and man it hit us strong
Different ways, we should've known
it wouldn't last
Once again we collide, left to pick up
what's left from the blast
You call it dark
I prefer art
Don't you think that I would
rather go your away
to simply be able to say
You want it,
well fuck it, let's go
But you know
I know
that it's time to kill this show ...
It doesn't matter, never did
let's proceed
Don't smile, just don't
Can't let go, I will be kissing
my sanity goodbye I guess
Well I wanted the world,
couldn't settle for less
Now  go on and test fate
twist your destiny
Go ahead and dream about
being free
Feeling tied up, chained down
They watch as you slowly drown
Shredded soul, silent heartbeat
and if your faith is gone
how will you take the leap ?
So lost, no longer know what I seek
it's going to take a while better sit
Addicted to the pain 'till it makes you sick
Take my hand this is it
We will tear it all down brick by brick
At last you smile, and my heart skips a beat
Oh I know, you know
but from here where do we go ?


quinta-feira, 3 de novembro de 2016

My turn ...

I guess the time is up
There's a war coming
soldier you better duck
No truce love, I just don't
give a fuck
My shot to take
My heart to break
So for your own sake
avoid this silly mistake
I'm true to the core, little snake
I do not fake
I do not lie my way through
that's what sets us apart
huge gap between me and you
I don't step on another in order to win
But I'm no saint dear
I do enjoy to sin
Maybe a little too much
embracing such rush
Overwhelmed by that raw crush
So even through this whole mess
I guess ...

It's my turn
to watch it all burn
Up in flames, right down
to the ground
I can almost feel the blood all around
You're lame
and next to me ...
You have no game
Warning shot
Came to front ? Better not
Don't be silly who the fuck forgot ?
You tied it around your own neck
that tight knot
Step back
before I snap
Someone's gonna get hurt
I do not fear pain
I already tasted the dirt
spitted it right out of my mouth,
clawed out of the pit
Lost my mind, got sick
Put up with a surreal amount of shit
Came out alive, smiling
While you ?
God, you're not even trying
We've been fighting
struggling with it
Fixing the irreparable
'till the point it gets unbearable
We tried, we gave it a go
But truth is, we can't let go ...

All the darkness I got
familiar with
Haunt me from time to time,
it's worst at night
You know what I'm talking about love,
am I right ?
We withered, part of us died
and man, how we cried
So don't expect it to come easy
it's not supposed to be light
and yes, you'll have to fight
Dementia is only a path, possible to cross
That story, that now I grab and toss
to wherever suits me best
Darling who told you that the wicked
get to rest ?
Oh yeah I'm going to hell
I already know that story too well
Cold bitch, that shows no emotion
but that's merely your notion
I come with the poison and the antidote potion
Don't worry, we'll be alright
'cause darkness has it's own special
kind of light ...


quarta-feira, 2 de novembro de 2016

Whatever it takes, I'll be me ...

At the time she just wanted
to be loved
To be rescued from
that darkness inside
Too much turbulence on the ride
too much of a man to swallow
his pride
too selfish to stick by your side
Then the clock stood still
she was incapable to feel
anything but cold
Broken hearted they say
Still I see it as a brand new day
Following a different way
Now our time ran out
We are left with the permanent doubt
How could it have been ?
How could it turn out to be ?
Left with a huge wall between
you and me ...

They keep hoping ; I don't
even pray no more
I'm done being love's little bitch,
a silly emotion's whore
Harsh right ?
But I've been here before
I've already fought this fight
But how can you show the truth
to whom lives a perfect lie ?
How can you expect them to win
if they are too much of cowards to try
You gave them wings
but they are afraid to fly
You were their inspiration
their addictive kind of special frustration
and damn it I wouldn't rewrite it for the world ...
I would still follow this script
word by word
All this weight on my shoulders
got me this far
I'm fine with the Devil in my reflex,
we are who we are
Don't deny it, nor repress it
You'll feel so much better after confessing it
I get to strike you as sick in the head
Bonkers love, completly mad
Still you can't lie, the best you ever had
Keep him on his toes
Dreading how it goes
I'm a motherfuckin' beast
Temptation's sweetest feast
to say the least
Permanent fog, thick mist
Never superficial, I dig deep
You never know how it might end
Trick or treat?


terça-feira, 1 de novembro de 2016

Witch's prayers

You're gone again
But then again
You were never here to begin
with, right ?
I regret to say that it's all dark
can't see any light
And we are at the end
am I right friend ?
I don't think you can hear me
let along understand
Mr. Pan will always prefer
to be lost in neverland ...
You want a perfect happy ending
I got your happy ending right here
And now you refuse it dear ...
What's that I see ? Fear ?
You want it all and you can't wait
One day it will be too late
to fix such mistake
Once you open hell's gate
you sealed your wretched fate
No victims here, no casualties
of war
We became the monsters
we hunted before
It's never enough, you always
want more
And you rip, you take, leaving it
hollow right down to the core
It comes back, it always will
You signed it, the damned deal
It's like a spell, you feel it too
Attached to strings, mere puppets
There's nothing you can do
And behind the mask lies
everything we hold as true

Light the match, watch me burn
feed the fire
I'll whisper a curse to your name
while the flames reach higher
Yes light the Witch up
bow down to the liar
Your knees against the cold dirt
You Sir by allowing this game to continue will
end up hurt
Not a threat, it's a vow
I'll drag you to hell, already know how
I'll be lurking in the shadows, and I shall
make my move when you least expect
with so much to lose why do you bet ?
You seem to forget
But I'll remind you, but not yet
I propose you to end this charade
while there's still time
Otherwise revenge will be rightfully mine
You see I'm no saint, far from that
still a stab in the back ?
That's a daring play
you are brave I must say
Never thought I would see the day
when someone would boldly
snatch away
everything I fought for 'till today
Oh you better pray
might be useless but if it allows you
to lay
your head down and sleep through the night
If you do really believe it's pointless
to fight
If you can no longer set right
apart from wrong
then you are exactly where you belong
I'll add dirt to your grave
You know me, I have no clue how to behave
As you putted, emotion's slave
Wasn't I ?
And then saddly as all things innocence
had to die
Instead of struggling I allowed it to take over
and the voices said we are closer
it's almost over ...